With each sip of this tea, I feel a sense of awe building. There is a feeling of power and majesty in me, accompanied by some head stuff, some confusion - how indeed can this be? What is this plant, this spirit? No matter how often this kind of experience has been gifted to me, no matter the myriad times I have been blessed to receive this nectar and share in Her knowledge, to be shaken and stirred so very deeply, I still sometimes question this Mystery. What is going on? How can this be explained?
The 'little self ' wonders why and wherefore while the higher self bathes in... wonder.
Wonder. It's among my favorite words (along with magic; mystery; steam; adrift; sensuous; and fluff). The sense of wonder. It's part of what distinguishes us from our other mammalian cousins. What a marvel it truly is that we can gaze for endless minutes, just for the inherent beauty of it, at a landscape, or at a sunset, or at a small Arctic yellow flower growing tenaciously behind a rock in the tundra, or into the bottomless pools of a dear friend's eyes, or at a touching scene of human interaction, at lovers cuddling on a park bench... These things arouse in us a sense of awe, amazement and hypnotized wonder (I will use this word often here, be warned).
Wonder is something that many thinkers, philosophers and scientists have written about. It seems to be the inspirational source of our drive to step forward. Astronaut Neil Armstrong once said, and he should know about these things, "Mystery creates wonder, and wonder is the basis of man's desire to understand."
Going back much further, as do most all quotations on just about any subject, Aristotle said, quite famously, that "Philosophy begins with wonder" (actually the quote is also ascribed to his teacher Plato, and to Plato's teacher Socrates - great minds think alike). Less famously, Aristotle expounded, "Wonder implies the desire to learn". It is what fuels any quest.
More recently, Alan Watts had this to say about the impossibility of intellectualizing and quantifying one's innate curiosity about the ways things are: "I don't know what question to ask when I wonder about the universe. It isn't a question that I'm wondering about, it's a feeling that I have... Because I cannot formulate the question that is my wonder. The moment my mouth opens to talk about it, I suddenly find I'm talking nonsense. But that should not prevent wonder from being the foundation of philosophy."
Wonder and a sense of mystery do seem to be at the root of a desire to learn; in a sense it can be said to be the motivation to step forward into any endeavor - why we 'risk' doing anything at all. It's a kind of semi-conscious impulse towards a feeling of discovery, as if some part of us yearns for and seeks it. It is fulfilling, and feels fun!
Aristotle, being an empiricist, also knew that knowledge is gained mainly through experience, and that experience for us humans, comes through our senses. None of us really are able to understand something unless we directly experience it ourselves (it's what makes full understanding between two people a rather distant dream, unless empathy is continually encouraged). We are sensual beings, to a very large degree guided and limited by our physical senses.
Meditative tea drinking is both a sensual and deeply spiritual activity, and as such connects both realms seamlessly. This to me is a wonder, the essential Mystery of Tea. To see a guest's entire physical frame change over the course of a tea session, to bear witness to a human soul-softening/opening, is to me something so beautiful. On a number of occasions I have been blessed to be able to look into the soulful eyes of someone after a tea session, eyes which just hours before were clouded by thought, confusion, noise, etc. The thanks expressed in this state often come out gorgeously awkward, as previously untapped emotions or states of being are translated into words. This is something Tea, and we as tea brewers, can offer it to others. How marvelous!
Tea provides a physical bridge to an inner world which most of us have rendered inaccessible by thought patterns, distractions and ego. Many ancient cultures understood that the outer world can be made to nourish and connect with our inner worlds, and they weren’t thinking about shopping centers or sports bars… necessarily. For us, tea is one of the bridges to the Sacred, which illuminates some of the mysterious passageways through the soul. And She does this with great love and grace; while Tea is a spirit powerful enough to whack you when needed, usually She just nudges and embraces, protects and reveals. This is the essence of a good teacher, to provide clear vision and to nudge us when it’s time to be nudged, yet all along doing so from a basis of care and concern.